You know that I like to write and I have so many feelings I need to get out. Wow, a blog in your memory, I bet your feeling special. I’ve been on such an emotional roller coaster since Friday morning when I got the call.
I can’t believe I’ll never see your smiling face again. When I dropped you off the Airport as you headed off for a new adventure I wish I had hugged you a little bit harder. It’s so crazy how fragile life can be and how unseen circumstances can change a life. What if the waitress had taken a little while longer to bring you your check, you had ordered something that took a little longer to cook, you didn’t have that cigarette outside that I know you did. Then maybe that driver that hit you would have already driven down the street and your paths would not have crossed.
I know that some people believe that we are all predestined to depart this earth at a certain time, I don’t know if I really believe that, there are just to many variables that have to come into play.
I know that although we didn’t talk about it much you were a bit of a tortured soul that you tried to hide with a smile and a hearty laugh. But, I always knew…
I’m trying to find comfort in the fact that you don’t have to worry about anything anymore. You don’t have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders any longer. I know in time I will feel that way.
But, I’m not ready to say goodbye yet. Can you call me?